Men do not suck
Independence at what cost?
Men have been the source of much pain in my life but they do not suck.
The right man is tonic for the soul.
Separateness does not serve me.
I spent many years creating a fortress around my heart.
Afraid of commitment. Afraid of the control of a masculine presence in my life.
My head didn’t want or need partnership but this isn’t how the universe works.
The feminine energy still swirled inside of me like a magnet for the masculine.
I attracted men.
I attracted the wrong men.
All of them unavailable emotionally or physically.
I didn’t blame them for this. I saw the gift.
The gift of the mirror they held up to me.
Until I worked through my pain and my own emotional unavailability,
I’d only ever attract the unavailable.
As the years passed, my heart knew the score.
A life without intimate love and connection is no life at all.
One Saturday evening, alone, my heart spoke to me.
Pain.
An ache for more. I could stand it no more.
A palpable fear of opening my heart up again.
Little did I know where this would take me…
This is how women grow.